” I have to go to work”
There, I said it. Along with “I can’t take your call, I have to work’. These words, although were my ‘go-to’s’ in my old life, to say it today, felt slightly off. For good reason.
I haven’t worked in 2 years at a regularly scheduled job.( It’s a long dramatic over-told story, so to cut to the chase, I will skip it.)
I first want to acknowledge how ironically grateful I am for having this be my truth, it’s two years I wouldn’t trade for the world.
In that time, I have learned that when you do not have to punch a time clock, life is easier. It flows in unimaginable ways. I can try to spin it, to make it feel better – but when you “have to go to work” unless you are loving what you are doing, you are probably only really living your best life outside of those hours. Which doesn’t leave a lot of time.
So today when I said the words and I realized I had made a commitment to work for someone today, I took it for what it was.
Not my whole life, not my super passion, just work – My life coach calls it my side hustle. That thing we do to pay the bills. It is where I am of service to others and I get paid. We don’t always love it, but we endure to make other parts of our life available to us.
I have a really strong work ethic. I am one who can sit 9 hrs straight and barely know its passed if I have a deadline to meet.
Great work quality, horrible “live your life as if ” quality.
The beauty of today is that because of those two years, I can handle it in a much different way. I know me well enough inside now to know what will or will not work for me and I can adjust accordingly.
I can set boundaries around my time and my days.
I can count the hours of work and the hours of play.
I can do this, I can do this………
In case you haven’t gathered by now- work scares the pants off me (another part of the long story) and I thought if I wrote this then maybe it would help me with the impending adjust to my 100% free lifestyle. Maybe, I think, it will help someone else in the process, and then I remember why I need the side hustle:
My passion is writing. Creating. Traveling. Living life. Learning. Sharing joy. Inspiring. Playing. Cooking. Gardening. Laughing. Reading. Watching Movies and television. Beaching. Dining. Concerts. Just hanging with my favorite peeps – I love my Pool-time & paddle -boarding at the Lake. I love the joy life brings when you let it.
Lots of good reasons to continue the side-hustle. 🙂